if i cry...
If I Cry

If I cry,
will you wipe my tears,
will you abolish,
pain from all these years?

If I cry,
and show you my scars,
will you hide,
and lock me up?

If I cry,
then you will know i hurt,
I don't want you to know why,
there's so much blood on my shirt.

If I cry,
and call your name,
will you walk away,
and turn your head in vain?

If I cry will you comfort me,
and love me all the same,
despite my wrong, my sin, my scars,
despite all of my pain?

If I cry,
will you leave me here;
let me sink in,
my darkest fear?

If I cry,
and let you see,
what then,
will you think of me?

If i run,and cry all at once,
how will you react,
it hurt so bad to see your face,
when you caught me in the act.

You saw my blood, my shirt so soaked,
you just stared in awe,
you saw the blade, the blood, my pain,
then pretended like you never saw.

If I cry will you remember me,
and try to save my life,
if I cry will you love me then,
despite my addicting knife?

I just want to remember,
how you loved me then,
you are my own mother,
the only one that's been.

Just love me like you love him,
and then I'll put down my knife,
but you can't love me,
you never will, not one time in my life.